i had no idea

are you thereso things between us have been distant and maybe it’s just me but i have a bad feeling that something isn’t right.

if i don’t hear from her soon i will go over to make sure everything is ok, but i am sure everything is, since she tells me everything and she hasn’t said anything.

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well it’s been a week since i last heard from her and i’m really starting to get worried.

i went by her house but she wasn’t there and she hasn’t answered my texts or my calls.

then again there have been a few times where she was distant and when she came around she was just fine but never this long.

maybe she’s just going through a hard time.

i know how it is when i’m going through a hard time.

i just want to be by myself.

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honestly, i gave it a few days before i went to check up on her at her work but they said she hadn’t showed up for work the last few days.

that wasn’t like her so i went over to her house. her car was there but there was no answer when i knocked on the door so as soon as i got home i called the cops.

i assumed everything was ok since i never heard back from the officer i spoke to. he assured me that they would go over to check on her and if anything was wrong they would let me know.

i tried calling him back but the dispatcher that answered the phone said she wasn’t able to provide me with any information regarding my friend’s whereabouts.

what did she mean she couldn’t provide me with any information?

rather than waiting to hear back from the officer, i drove to my friend’s house to figure out what was going on but there was one problem.

the road was blocked off.

i quickly pulled over and ran over to the house i knew of very well when i was stopped by a police officer.

i begged him to let me go but he refused, saying no one was allowed on the property because it was under investigation.

the next thing you know they carried a body covered with a white sheet out of her house.

i yelled –what was going on?? and what did he mean the property was under investigation??

i argued with the officer telling him –i had every right to know what was going on since i was the one that called them in the first place.

a detective walked over trying to calm me down but that didn’t work.

he asked me a few questions and asked me to leave.

i cried –please, don’t you understand i am the one who called and all i want to know is what is going on and whose body was taken from the house??

i promised to calm down if they promised to tell me what was going on.

the detective said –my friend was a victim of domestic violence and he was sorry but she didn’t make it.

he said –that was the only information that he could provide me with and that if i heard anything about what happened to give him a call. he gave me a card with his name and number.

what the fuck did he mean “she didn’t make it?”

i guess this has been going on for some time now and this wasn’t the first time the cops received a call to come to the residence to check up on my friend and her husband because of what was going on behind closed doors but i was told it would be the last.

but how could this have been going on for awhile?

i thought she told me everything, but apparently not.

all i can think about was being asked what i had known about the abusive relationship between the two but the truth was “i had no idea

1 peter 3:7 in the same way, you husbands must give honor to your wives. treat your wife with understanding as you live together. she may be weaker than you are, but she is your equal partner in god’s gift of new life. treat her as you should so your prayers will not be hindered.

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if you know someone who is in a toxic relationship and in need of help please have them contact the national domestic violence hotline at 1-800-799-7233

eye WITNESS

eeyeI’m LOSING my MIND and I can’t TAKE it ANYMORE

I seen and HEARD something I WISH I would have NEVER seen or HEARD.

I was at the WRONG place at the WRONG time.

It’s NOT like I was LOOKING for TROUBLE it just HAPPENED.

Everything happened so FAST but NOT fast ENOUGH for ME to LOOK away as if I didn’t SEE a THING.

I seen it ALL.

It ALL started when I heard ARGUING going on in the MIDDLE of the STREET between two guys in the DARK.

What was I doing OUT there at that time of the NIGHT??

I needed to get my MIND off some THINGS so I wanted to take a WALK to the STORE to get some BEER.

I couldn’t HELP over hear the CONVERSATION echoing THROUGH the STREETS.

The CLOSER I got the LOUDER it GOT.

The next thing you KNOW one PULLED out a GUN and SHOT the OTHER one and FLED the SCENE.

To DISGUISE myself I pulled over my HOODIE and walked into the NIGHT.

I ran DOWN the DARK alleys as FAST as I could BUT as soon as I got INTO the LIGHT I walked it OFF as if I knew NOTHING about what I just WITNESSED.

I WANTED to get HOME as soon as I COULD.

Forget the BEER, what just HAPPENED was BIGGER than my PROBLEMS and if SOMEONE noticed I was nearby the SCENE of the CRIME there was going to be a PROBLEM.

I didn’t WANT any PART what HAPPENED.

Shortly AFTER I heard SIRENS going like CRAZY.

They must have got a CALL about the SHOOTING.

I STOPPED at the STORE anyway I had to USE the RESTROOM. I put SOME water on my FACE to MAKE sure this was just a BAD dream BUT it wasn’t, it was REALLY happening.

As I was WALKING out of the STORE someone was WALKING in. They apologized for slightly BUMPING into ME as they WALKED in. When I LOOKED over to SAY it was OK I SWORE I saw a GHOST when I seen who it was. I didn’t EVEN know what to SAY.

It was the PERSON who just SHOT and LEFT someone to DIE in the middle of the STREET right in FRONT of ME.

I don’t THINK he SEEN me because as SOON as it HAPPENED he was GONE like he was NEVER there.

As I walked out, I HEARD the CASHIER ask HIM if he KNEW what was going on OUTSIDE because he HEARD cops ALL over the PLACE. I couldn’t BELIEVE what came OUT of HIS mouth when he ANSWERED the CASHIER. He said –He didn’t KNOW he JUST got out of “work” when he NOTICED something going on.

I wish I would have NEVER left my HOUSE in the FIRST place.

I kinda had a BAD feeling SOMETHING was going to HAPPEN but I went anyway.

When I got HOME I went STRAIGHT to my ROOM.

I tried to get some SLEEP but I couldn’t I had too MUCH on my MIND. I kept re-playing what HAPPENED over and over in my HEAD.

I was AFRAID of GOING anywhere or DOING anything, so I just STAYED home LOCKED in my ROOM.

I didn’t want to TALK to ANYONE about ANYTHING.

The STORY was ALL over the NEWS.

I always WONDERED where the POLICE and the NEWS got their INFORMATION from, they HAD it ALL wrong. But I wasn’t about to TELL them what REALLY happened that NIGHT.

I was AFRAID if I said SOMETHING, something would HAPPENED to ME or to my FAMILY and I didn’t WANT anything to HAPPEN to THEM.

They POSTED a “blurry” picture of SOMEONE in a BLACK hoodie on the NEWS asking if ANYONE knew who it was or if they had any INFORMATION they were asked to CALL the POLICE.

That someone in the HOODIE was ME. I wasn’t a SUSPECT or a PERSON of INTEREST but POSSIBLY a “witness” that could HELP solve the CRIME.

Good THING you couldn’t SEE my face, ALL you could SEE was my HOODIE.

How they got that PICTURE I don’t KNOW.

All I KNOW is NO one NEEDS to KNOW I’m the “witness” –the “EYE witness” they’ve been LOOKING for.

Ephesians 5:11 Take no part in the worthless deeds of evil and darkness; instead, expose them